Getting older but none the wiser?

Not long ago, I was still sunk in so comfortably watching dramas in my room in Brisbane, Australia, ignoring the fact that i was very soon to be home and never again going back to live there, at least not anytime soon. I have always enjoyed living there. I love their environment, the friendly people, their culture; Not that i don't love my home country, Malaysia still is a place where i love the good food, family and friends, but maybe.. not so much about the people. Nevertheless, still incomparable with Australia. Safety alone is already an issue. Well, I reckon i'm not the only Malaysian here praising the wonders of other countries.

Now that i'm back in Petaling Jaya, I yearn for Brisbane's rustic charms and their greenery. Although i stayed only 1 1/2 years, the affinity i felt with that way of life has made a lasting impression on me. By contrast, here in KL, people work like crazy and carry on with their lives but all this is done with such composure that one is somehow drawn in and become involved in their lives. There is no time to stop and think. There will never be a time, after a day's work to pause, ppl will laze around and watch the sky turn into myriad colors of the rainbow when dusk falls.

Having to force to leave my adolescent time and stepped into the working world , having no choice but to address myself as an adult, no longer a teenager feels miserable. The total strange surrounding and the obligation to commit myself to wake up early every morning and reach home late at night... totally unacceptable for the moment now. And i think, will i ever be, like all the other adults, to be caught in the rigors of the rat race where relationships tends to get relegated to the background as i often heard of disputes between adults. Being a teenage, relationship around us has already somewhat felt scandalous, what's more about being an adult?

Griefing over the great missing feeling towards my life in overseas hasn't been better, along with the problems i'm gaining from my family and relationship and having to work right now, added more misery and pain that it has naturally puts a lot of pressure on me, i feel like a rubber band, stretched to the limit, ready to snap at any time! However, as fate would have it, a page had turned in my life and there was no turning it back. Now, i am forced to live through it and I hope to learn from this so-called period of storm and stress and emerge a better person from it, like a butterfly coming out from its cocoon. Hopefully as time passes i'll gradually get used to the working life.. It feels like i'm getting older day by day but none the wiser.

Oh well.. Just.. the thought of not having time to savour life feels ever bitter. It felt like once you have started working, people are always racing against time. Everyone is too caught up with his or her life. WAIT. To use the word "life" is not even strictly correct because what is life when there is no time to enjoy it? What is life when, all of a sudden you turn back one day and find you have reached the end?

when i get used to the life now,
and i've less complaints to file,
that will proves that i'm getting wiser.
and urgh,
ignore the older part. :/

Sunday Blues.

Last kiss.
Last memory.

Kota Kinabalu - Day 1

The very first day.... speechless. Because it felt like we were rushing for the time of our life the whole day.

our flight : 6.50am
we woke up: 4.10am
we missed the kl sentral bus at 4.30am
we pay through our nose for taxi to rush for our flight.

Despite of everything was in a mess, i thank God for letting us board and depart the plane safely!

God is awesome for such view!

and this boy only cares too much to sleep. ;(

Depart 9.20am, full of luggages.. of course go hotel first right?

And we hopped on to this money sucker arranged by the airport to the town's bus-stop to grab the free shuttle bus to tune hotel. The city is like 15 minutes away from airport? (everyone in KK is a money sucker -_- in fact, quite an extreme one.)

However, this taxi is definitely the most "high-class" wannabe taxi i have ever seen, with the concept of limousine and look at those blings! I'm most fascinated :p

We reached the hotel around 10.30am and we can only check-in by 2pm. Its impossible for us to get back to the city because its quite far and we have to cooperate with the timing the shuttle bus provided, sides with our luggage..? *GLUM* !@#$!% In the end, we paid Rm2 each for the luggage for tune hotel to look after... see, like i said! everyone in KK are all money suckers. Luggage also need to charge! We then decided to spend our 3 and the half hour walking in one of few famous malls below in KK. Nothing eye-catching, just like our shopping malls here but of course, ours is BETTER :D

Roaming around for an hour almost killed me already! We had our lunch, we walked like snail, we bitch stared everyone that passed by us... haha jk! 1pm we went back to the hotel and negotiated the time to check in, and the earliest we could get is 1.45pm. -_-" better than nothing. After we checked in, we readied up and made our way to visit Green Connection. less than 10 minutes taxi ride in the city = RM20. -_-

Green Connection is like an aquarium but in their very unique way. Lets put it this way, green connection is nothing luxury like seaword in australia. Personally, i didn't like it from the beginning i stepped into the place. (maybe i'm so used to visiting nice aquariums like singapore, aus and even klcc is better). But is definitely a whole new experience.

and WHY is it so bad?

The water is filthy where you sometimes can't even spot anything; Its muddy everywhere because it was raining; The aquarium is like a big fish tank where ppl rear their fishes at home. We're practically feeding the mosquitoes. The worst thing is that they charges Rm20 pp, a bit pricey for such place. (probably cheap for the foreigners) The place is quite small and we felt foolish rushing for everything because we fear that we couldn't managed to see everything in time since we arrived so late. But apart from that, being positively, at least there were still a few things that caught our attention. [btw! don't get deceive by the brochure around advertising green connection, is never as nice as what it stated inside! the pictures look truly deceiving too!]

I still prefer mantra ray in australia. :)

guitar shark.
Combination of shark and stingray.
They gave his a name "GANGSTER".
Because every feeding time, he never fails to snatch other fishes food.
Even the sharks never go near.

cool eh!

The feeding shark session started around 4.30pm:

More like feeding turtle to me. lol.

Look at the greedy fella.

one of my favorite!
Dancing with the turtle!

and stingray!

My boy doesn't have the balls to touch it. ><

Stonefish, extremely poisonous.
Credited to Steve Irvin for the knowledge when we were watching his video in tangalooma, australia.
fuck, i miss australia so much. :(

cute :)

"science" centre:

Went for a slow walk along the restaurant side where is close to the beach:

Felt a tug at the heart when viewing the sunset. ;)






seafood dinner!
We had definitely underestimate the price of a mantis prawn where they quoted 100gm=rm9. We ordered one and it came out around rm40! FOR ONE. GASP :(

kk's coconut water is awesome though.

we finished our dinner and we practically walked as fast as we could to the bus-stop, hopefully to catch the next one. And only to find out that the shuttle bus was full, have to wait an hour for the next one. urgh, FOL. Well, brisk walk after dinner is always good, isn't it? ;)

Favorite pic of the day. ♥

rush rush rush.
second day. :)

Lost

I may have lost my heart carelessly to someone unworthy;
I may have been affected badly;
I may have teared myself to death;
I may have lost myself completely;
I may have lost everything.

But,
fear not little ones,
He's always there.
He represents a new beginning, hope and love,
and the only almight one that has never gave up on us.
:)

New phase of life.

3 months of self-declared holiday ended just like a sudden rain only lasted for an hour. (THAT FAST!). I am practically still living under my own sweet fantasy world, thinking of holidays, traveling, shopping, etc... But something struck me hard today! It made me realized how cruel reality could be. Having to stuck in the jam for 2 hours after work AND on the first day of work -> ANGER, DEPRESSING, FRUSTRATION, EXHAUSTION.. do me a favor, just name me all the negative emotions you could think of!

On the journey home, i kept thinking... Oh God, what am i going to do with the rest of my life enduring such dreadful jam...?

SMACK!
As though i could hear someone whispering to me:
Welcome to the working world.
This is LIFE.
This is REALITY.
This is your NEW PHASE OF LIFE.

Oh dear Jesus!
I'm more than willing to work,
but please! anything but TRAFFIC JAMS!

and i'm gotta learn to be more positive and stronger to deal with my new phase of life now.
instead of frowning,
i should be smiling and counting my blessing!

Opening for The Elephant Restaurant - Hartamas

Our friend - Yang and partners have successfully open a new restaurant -The Elephant located in Hartamas. Its a Thai restaurant and i heard the one near section14 was quite good.

So yeap, we went for the opening and mostly the drink served were all alcohols. We are all going to be alcoholic! :D We even had people getting drunk, at the time of NINE. So unusual but not so unusual as well.... since the watermelons are all soaked in SOJU; watermelon juice were mixed with alcohols; Redbull, green tea with alcohol. The only thing which is pure was YAKULT. So its pretty understandable if someone went down even at the starting of the opening which is 6pm!

We had some training while drinking.

This is the bomb! yuck.

Pretty much said it all.