apologizing to myself that I've not loved myself enough to go through that kind of mistreatment. 

I've been living in denial. I only remember the good things of yours and didn't dare to face the bad side. probably that's the reason why I can go on and on trying to fix things.

my abundance of love for you is real, but you threw it away so meanly. 

someone else will appreciate it the next time.

such love and hatred, I think I'm going for hatred, for myself.

 IMY, tho.

self speak

things don't always happen when you expect them to, nor do they necessarily follow the right order. some major life events happen to people in the first third if their journey, some in the second. and mine, now, in this very present moment.  i know there will be more hardship in the future, and God will never stop making me fall and learn. 

I need to keep growing. it would be nice not to have to wait for the things we want. it's especially challenging when it seems like everyone around me was given access to the fast lane while I'm stuck in traffic.

I'm not short on love for other people, but I haven't always been so kind to myself. 

change is good, yet quite often we won't make it unless we're compelled to do so. and it'll not work if is only one sided.

learn to know yourself, love yourself. swim in it, love it and embrace the new opportunities. 

its difficult, it hurts sometimes, and you'll feel like your strength has been sapped. but it hasn't. you are more than you know, and by realizing this, you'll start to see the tests as signs that illuminate your pathway. 

life is messy, glorious, heartbreaking, its a journey that goes from light to dark and back again. but, in this darkness you find your strength. I'm still fumbling, but i believe better days are ahead because i trust in You. 

in the middle

why wouldn't love conquer everything?  how did things became so one sided?

people used to think or say (I'm one of them) that if someone cannot accept who you are, surely there is someone out there will love you enough to accept that. no it isn't true, there's a limit to accepting everything. accepting but changing who you are is not gonna work. yes, we can learn to accept and help each other to grow in a good way. but accepting all blindly might turn the situation in a bad way. they won't learn and problem might escalate because of the constant giving in. 

if the love they had still once existed and think they could work things out together, will they do it together? will they learn to accept the differences and help each other to grow maturely for the better of our future? 

wished they were talking about going to the wedding now, just like a year ago. and a year ago, they were so sure they will be able to make it together because of the love they had for each other. does that kind of love still exist between them? 

time will tell, or perhaps, we will let each other know, whenever we both are ready. 

http://thechristianpundit.org/2012/08/15/it/

:'(

from and for dreamers

thanks for sharing. 

6 and 8, so I missed. :'( 

real hint

whatever IT is. whoever IT is. Let. It. Go. if they are not adding to your life, it is time to subtract them from yours. 

#forgivereleaseheal

Test

There's no silver lining in the dark clouds.

there are no reasons to be found anymore. 

pray and survive.