Sunday, October 30, 2011

Hey.

Definitely been a long 4 years...


HB.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Truly.

They used to be strangers.
Evolving..

Friends. Close friends. Best friends that were almost inseparable.

they used to share a couple of things in the beginning; and when they became closer, they shared almost everything from head to toe. There were numerous great memories in them from several places, new stuffs, new experiences and new friends. Those were the days, great time!

However, the usual saying; the longer period you are with a person, deepen the true colors you will be able to see in them.

And then...
Enemies.

Things started to fall apart and gotten so sour. Her heart instantly broken, knowing that she's going to lose the closest friend she'd always have and it seemed like forever they have been together. She learnt the hard and heart broken way. Nothing stays the same forever, like how we humans are, we aged.

Back to square one,
Strangers.

She missed him dearly as a friend. Gone were the days where we can just laughed and talked about anything. Gone were the days where we didn't have to worry about being lonely and finding the right person to hang out with. Just when she thought maybe, there are chances of arranging the broken pieces back. Its always when such thought came to the surface and something would came up and ruin the initial idea. Yet again proved that all they had were just lies. Didn't they promised each other countless time that even if they will never be close friends or how they used to be anymore, the darkest secret they shared will still remain in just them and not leak? LIES.

It is bad enough when a stranger or foes betrays you, but when it is someone you believed to be a close and trusted friend, partner, or spouse, it is especially hurtful. Often times it comes as a surprise, that is why it hurts the most. Humiliated. Despised. That's the exact feelings portrayed out at that moment.

The person you thought you could trust and count on is no longer the person you believed them to be. So you wonder what happened. Were you just wrong about them all along or did something change? Maybe your relationship changed and so did their loyalty to you. Maybe something in either or both of your lives has changed and they became insensitive to you. Or, maybe you both grew apart and in different directions.

I don't know the cause. But sure we know, it bloody hurts.


smash it again, like usual.
because her heart
truly given up,
truly died.
no more chances.
no more trying.
no more past.
Last of all.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Strength.

Perhaps you have experienced that same anonymity as a victim who was unnoticed or forgotten. Remember several glimmers of hope:

Even when everyone else forgets, God doesn't; when no one seems to notice, God sees; when no one seems to care, God cares; when you feel all alone, you aren't. And one of the first lessons God will teach you as you depend on him is that there are others who also care and are willing to help.

God have done countless wonders in my life.
I've learnt the hard way,
but fortunate to have drew closer to Him.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Too true to believe.

STAR horoscopes:

Ever reached that point where life feels like a cosmic joke? Cash flow's draining fast, everything's falling to pieces, and problems just seem to escalate. To say you've been through difficult times recently would be an understatement.
These are temporary troubles.


Fear.
:'(

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Ouch.

I used to love Saturdays...
cause of you.


ouch.